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i noe ppl cares.. but hu??? can u stand out n gimme a hug???i nid 1 now... i reali nid it

sobz..... mani had parents hu nag like fuck.... but i dun.. basically.. i had $ s my parents... wateva i wan.. i asked them 4 it.. they juz put there the nxt morning.. i din even hav the time 2 sae tankz u(even though i nv tot of saying).. tiz mth.. ghost mth... my frenz got calls frm parents when they're ot late.. but my fone stay dead... cant they show sum god-damned concern abt mi???
toking abt bias.. when my bro is abit late frm work or whereva fuck place he is.. they'll ask mi call or sms him... kaoz... mum,dad.. onli he got chances of dying outside huh?cant i die outside?or i'mnot ur son.. he is???sae mi jealous or wateva shit... i dun care.. i oso dunwan u all 2 bother mi 2 much.. a call 2 ask mi hm once awhile,izzit 2 hard..?i'm oreadi stressed up abt my fucking tests.. its reali driving mi crazy.. i sumtimes reali nid rac... she's nv ard... i onli got sum real gd frenz.. but u cant ask mi hug guyz or gals hu're not close 2 mi?u guyz sae i'm old enuff.. 18yrs... then is 15yr(my cursed bro) an infant??
,,l,,
sumtimes i reali wanted u guyz dead.. i wish u guyz r dead so i wun tink so much or even being jealous.. i juz nida sum1 pat mi on the back, sae kampatei or jia you... sum1 i cared abt.. Rachel & my parents,bro.. but they nv did tat... my frenz atleast gave mi all the tings i nid frm a fren... but my parents nv give mi ani shit... all they sae i'm old enuff... old enuff 2 die outside or old enuff 2 b disowned???Rac... i nv did said.. mayb i'm not all cheerful clown tat all c... i nv drop tears infornt of ani1... not even my best best best best best best best best best best best frenz seen mi cry... y???cuz i had gave my word 2 b the clown of my frenz... n i dun xpect ani return other than sum1 hu loves n cared abt mi like i cared n loved them... but it nv happened.. it nv happened...
Lastly.. Bro.. sorri abt slapping ur head... i luv ya... i do.. im sorri...

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

Poem.. 4 u.. n u onli

Nth much abt mi lately.. juz on the verge of breaking down le... tests cuming but juz cant stuff all inside.. i'm dead...
But rac.. i've got sumting 4 u.. i rode myself... my fren said it kinda sux... but i tink i'll juz put up here.. not the best of poem.. but.. tried my best.. best i can cum out so far... hope u like it... n try not 2 laugh... here it goes.... :

R-ose In My Heart,You are My Angel
A-ngel That Shines In Me
C-are You Showed,Touches Me Deeply
H-earts Of Us That Connect
E-verlasting Till We are Old
L-oving You For As Long As My Breath Holds

hope u like it...
i LUV u... u and only U
i do...

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

OMG!!!

OMG!!! another fucked up dae.. wat happen 2 the world lately man.. kaoz.. 2dae... my fucking COS teacher's attitude pissed our grp off sia.. OMG!!! kaoz.. i got IS projects 2 hand up ma.. then nida rush out of clz.. kaoz.. WTF.. nv wait 4 us can liao.. but she fucking rush us... kaoz feel like slapping her sia.. our clz chairman oso du lan her.. kaoz.. n.. her jokes like shit.. whore... haiz.. but reali enjoyed my way hm.. finally i can go hm wif 3 of my best frenz.. cuz our timeslots berri diff.. then we crap our way back lo.. haha... then 1 of them found 1 wallet... shhhh... then we toook all the $ n flipped thru the whole wallet... found lots of junks inside sia.. then we feng the $ n eat "Old Vagina"----> Old Chang Kee.. then we buy tings hm munch lo.. haiz.. sianz & pissed off....

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

KAOZ.... 2DAE IS A FUCKED UP DAE 4 MI SIA... ALL THE "IS" TINGS ALL IN A MESS AND 1 OF MY FUCKING GRP MEMBER GIMME ATTITUDE SIA.. KAOZ.. THIS IS DELICATED 2 HER :
"halo miss... i heard that u'd been scolding mi behind my back.... saying wat kind of leader i'm rite..?kaoz.. u tink i volunteered???u guyz sabo mi, BITCH... dun say it bhind my back la.. tell mi in my face la.. WHORE!!!and if u tink u can do betta tan wat we can offer... y dun u volunteer s leader???or rather u try doing it on ur own la.. HOE!!! u noe sumting?? u're juza fucking bitch where guyz would consider fuck u even u GIVE them $... kaoz... dun mess wif tiz chris ok???"
WATEVA THE CASE.. 2DAE IS STILL A NO GD DAE LA... DAMN DU LAN WIF TAT BITCH... FEEL LIKE STRIPPING HER N USE A BONJOUR N STUFF IN HER *TOOT*.. DAMN, WAT A "FATHER" FUCKER.... MACHAIM TINK SHE CAN DO EVRYTING SIA.. THEN CONMPLIAN.. WTF!!!!
1 MORE TING.. KAOZ.. THE COMN TOOLKIT'S REPORT WILL REALI KENA PLAGISM,WATEVA THEY LIKE 2 CALL TAT LA. MANY OF MY "IS" MATEZ KENA LIAO SIA... DUNO WAT 2 DO SIA.. ALL PANIC.. HAIZ..
BOTTOMLINE IS... I'M BEING FUCKED UP 2DAE... TUES IS SUPPOSE 2 B FUN CUZ OF EARLI RELEASE.. BUT.... FUCK MAN....

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

Haiz

haiz.. i'm down wuf a fucking flu.. DAMN the GODS!!! haiz.. sneeze till i wanna black out liao.. haiz... no1 is here.. where is my dear...?i dun nid u pei mi go c doc.. i juz wan u gimme a pat on the back.. but.. wherr r u when i nid some motivation 2 live...? onli my poly frenz r here 4 mi... but m i reali close 2 them..?haiz but tankz 4 u guyz' concern 2.. love u guyz.. but muz atleast tell mi how u guyz feel abt my chalet ma... if not.. the fucking chalet is off liao lo.. sobz... GO AWAY LA... FUCKING FLU!!!

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

Shld I or Shldnt I???

Shld i let go???shld i hang on??? WAT SHLD I DO?????????? WHERE ARE ALL MY BEST FRENZ????? its my poly's freznz tat care 2 ask... where r u guyz????

Tankz :
Rain
Sandra
Sebestian
Liangchou

Sorry.. i got nth 2 sae liao....

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

My New Blog Skin... Damn I Love It...

Kaoz... my new blog skin.. damn cool n cute.. haha.. tankz sharon.. tankz 4 making ur way down my hse n help mi.. ur help is greatly appreciated.. tankz.. 2dae we had a lecture talk... it started at ard 1:30pm.. but we ended at ard 2pm.. kaoz.. berri fast man.. fast till we kena shocked ourselves... mayb we 2 guai liao la.. gees...
after the lecture.. i rush back 2 wlds 2 meet my frenz.. Sharon & Patricia... 4 a meal at Pastamania.. the pasta there not bad... the pizza.. yuckz!!!it suckz... but we still finish it s it was kinda xpensive... then i & Patricia parted ways while Sharon went 2 my hse 2 do my blog skin.. haha.. nice hor...?
2 dae guess nth spoilt my mood till my frenz asked abt Rachel... haiz.. i duno wat 2 reply them... i juz said... i duno lo.. s she oso din gimme ani ans 4 mi... haiz.. but wateva the case.... 2dae is a great day ba.. nth made mi cry... i guess...
2dae my frenz said tat 12 Aug got meteor shower... n they siad tat it can b seen at East Coast Park... i asked her if she wanna go.. but she said she cant due 2 lunar mth.. guess its ok 2 ba.. she's a gal after all.. but aniway... ppl ask mi not 2 mention her name berri often 2 stop mi being hurtz furher... i'll try...
kkz.. hope tat u guyz like my NEW blog skin.. i oso wanna stress tat i'm NOT a gay... i juz like winnie the pooh... haha... kkz.. peace out..

"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™

Rachel.... Can You Please Tell Mi WHY???

ur MSN nick lately reali hurtz mi alot.. mayb u din noe... i cried.. hu cares... no1 nia..
WHERE THE FUCKING HELL IS U GUYZ??? my frenz... u guyz noe mi long enuff 2 noe tat i'm juz not laughing frm my heart... mayb u guyz new abt it liao... but y cant u guyz console mi.... atleast try if u guyz tink i might scold.... but... (":)
Rachel.. i duno if i shld sae tiz.... mayb i said it 2 mani times... here it goes...
I LOVE U... MORE/LESS THAN HIM..?I DUNO.. I JUZ PUT MY HEART THERE... U MADE MI WAITED 4 U IN VAIN MTHS AGO... WHEN I HELD UR HANDS AGAIN TIZ TIME.. I TOT TINGS R GOING MY WAYS... BUT IT NV SEEMS 2 B THE CASE... HE GAVE U FLOWERS.. MAYB TATS A GD SIGN 4 U SINCE U'RE "RECONSIDERING"... 1 MORE TING... RMB TAT TIME I TOLD U TAT I DUN MIND U CHOOSE HU?I LIED... I NV DID WANNA U CHOOSE HIM..
ALL THOSE REALI NOE MI WILL NOE TAT I HATE THOSE PPL HU SNATCHES OTHERS'... BUT I'M 1 OF THOSE PPL NOW.... MY FRENZ HAD ASK MI NOT 2 CARE ABT U LIAO.. BUT I JUZ CANT... I JUZ CANT... BEING IN THE SAME SCH DOES HAV EFFECT... ATLEAST HE IS ABLE 2 C U EVRYDAE...
but not me... but not me... i miz u... i love u... i care abt u... u miz mi???u love mi???u cared abt mi???tats 4 u 2 ans...

Happy National Day,Singapore!!!

haha.. Singapore is 40 yrs old liao... old lady wif new generation tinking.. all cool... haha
btw... 2dae i went watch fireworks @ esplande wif my gong zhu.. haha.. rare chance 2 hav alone time wif her lei...
1st.. i rushed hm b'cuz gong zhu said she's bored,wanna go out.. so i suggest fireworks viewing lo... then since it's still quite earli.. we went 2 catch a movie at LIDO,Shaw Org.. "the truth abt love"... hell.. tats was the worse show i've seen yet 2 cum.. haiz.. waste of $.. but nvm.. gong zhu pei mi.. then we went 2 the esplande,where the fireworks is held... tot we had a great seat,straight view 2 the open sky... but god noes it came frm another side... worse cum 2 worse,a stupid tree is blocking our hole view.. kaoz.. so suay.. but overall quite fun.. basically,i finally "dated" gong zhu.. 2 of us onli.. had fun.. Tankz gong zhu.. u're the best.. miz ya.. gdnite..
haiz.. but 1 ting dampens my mood... Rachel went 4 a chalet tat is organised 4 her...(duno if he is x anot) ... she told mi tat they got sumting special planned up 4 her... i scared tat.... haiz.. hu m i 2 b scared of?m i stupid or wat 2 ask her tell him not 2 touch her???haiz.. hu cares,i juz wanna protect her... hope she had fun oso la... still mizzes 4 her.. haiz.. yawnzzz.. its getting late.. blog till here.. nitie nitez 4 those hu viewed my blog.. tankz...

Finally.. A Great Day!!!

YOZ.. WATZ UP!!! haha.. the day is damn great... kaoz.. fun + loving + sweet + happening.... WOW!!!haha.. kkz.. 1 at a time...
I went Tampines Mall(TM) wif another best of mine,Chee Kang... kaoz.. waited 4 tat fucker 4 hr ++.. damn him.. walk frm wlds huh?haha.. we went there watch soccer----Chelsea vs Arsenal... Chelsea won 2-1 in the end... sobz... i hate Chelsea.. DAMN THE CLUB... haha.. then we sat beside a FUCKING IDOTIC family.. so damn fucking kaisu.. kaoz.. got 10++ goodies bag.. kaoz.. n damn fucking smelly.. haiz.. so suay sitting beside them.. kaoz.. sianz.. almost spoilt the whole trip.. but nvm.. haha... still had fun...
then b4 i went 2 meet up wif Chee Kang.. i met Rachel at Far East Plaza.... she brought a skirt n a sleveeless top.. haiz... hoping u'll wear it 4 mi 2 c... heez... went eating wif her.. then we went play pool nxt Somerset MRT... then met her frenz halfway thru our game.. then discard mi when she's having fun.. haiz.. i'm not fun???haha... haiz.. tot tiz wk we're not gonna meet.. but hu predicted it?haha.. hiaz... though u wif frenz in the end.. i still enjoyed holding ur hands walking down Orchard Road.. do tat often..?guess u're juz 2 bz ba.. haha.. nvm then.. i'll b waiting 4 u.. heez.. msg u on the way back.. but u like felt aslp liao... nvm.. still miz ya lots.. haha...
then on the way back frm TM... we brought Mac drink 2 accompani us 4 the trip.. n sum bread.. heez... then when we reached.. the drive notice mi "drop" the cup on his bus then ask mi go throw... WTF!!!.. but i still did lo.. then on 903 bus... a drunkard sat behind mi.. smelly n irritating when his head keep on hitting mi.. kaoz.. feel like giving him a fucking punch... duno how 2 hold his "ju liang" dun drink la.. 4 goodness sake.. haha... haiz.. i tot of playing 4 the next 2 daes.. but all my frenz dunwan.. haiz... Rachel's frenz so on,happening.. mine...? haiz.. not i wanna sae u guyz la.. juz.. wanna u guyz join in more often... go out more.. we're stuck tgt 4 the nxt 3 yrs man.. hahaz.. aniway.. love u guyz still.. hahaz..
kkz la... blog till here lo.. latta ppl sae my blog long n boring.. haha.. love all those ard mi.. mayb i not lonely after all... muackz(4 ya Rachel)...

Haiz... Sianz Dae

Hi.. 1st.. let mi intro myslf.. i'm juz a plain funni guy name Chris hu is born 2 make ppl ard mi laugh.. kkz..
Now 4 my dae... 1 words xplain it all.. juz plain sianz.. nth 2 do.... waited 4 my fren 2 gimme back my hp batt 4 an hr.. then chiong back 2 woodlands(wlds),where i live 2 attend my best fren's BD Party.. haiz.. at 1st dun reali wish 2 go b'cuz the whole party is basically abt his poly frenz... onli i n Yean Seng(another fren of mine) r his sec sch frenz... pathetic hor?haiz.. no choice..
but s the party cont. ,mi n Yean Seng mixed well wif his poly frenz... we n them r pretty much of the same : CRAZY!!!.. haha...
then Rachel went performance of Chi Orchestra.. 4 the whole dae.. wat the hell is the teacher-in-charge tinking.. making her so tired... haiz.. din c her 4 a wk liao... i juz miz her so much.. Rachel... i Miz Ya.. Serious..
now is the Hungry Ghost Fest.,spooky but fun.. can go ard scaring ppl... heez... i'm used 2 sae words like gui,si.. ppl sae tiz muz stop atleast 4 tiz mth.. but i juz cant stop.. *blushed*... so i slap myself 3 times after i "uncontrollably" sae those words lo... haiz.. tankz rain 4 teaching mi how 2 blog.. i'm juz a blog-idiot.. duno y.... haha.. kkz... juz had 2 stop here lo.. update u guyz again when i'm sianz again(berri soon i guess)