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haiz... lately... i felt berri empty within mi... sum may start 2 tink tat i'm here ranting abt my love-less life... well.. i duno myself y i'm here saying these... so how cld u guyz noe???
but i'm perfectly sure tat i'm not 2 brood over mi losing her... i juz wanna blog out the emptiness of my live currently... i reali felt empty & duno wat i wanna do nxt.... haiz.. reali no idea of wat i wanna/nida do after i blogged tiz post.... haiz... wats getting into mi???
tings had gotten serious... an xam... wich's suppose to SOUNDS impt... but i actualli dun buy a neccesary books & juz ask my frenz 2 help mi fotocopi, i din reali MAK AN EFFORT to study or even refer during xam(it's an open book xam).... wats got into mi... & i hell owe alot of ppl $.. like shannon's $4... ck & gh's duno how much... wats my life turning into man.... FCUK!!!! i can serious/truthfully tell u tat my world is toppling down & i'm damn not used to it.....
my sec sch frenz, whom i treasure, respect like alot..... my Nan Ren Bang... i actualli 'scolded/ticked' ys off man.. haiz.. the pressure reali high la... cant handle... i miz the sec sch daes... where everyting is so standard, where i onli nid 2 study & follow thru the text, teachers' instructions... but in poly... cept 4 the frenz i met.... nth pleases my fcuking mind... i ACTUALLY DUNWANNA GROW OLD!!!!
sae mi childish, inmature, attitude 4 all i care... its doesnt reali matters to mi... cuz when u cant even help urself... ppl r rite 2 judge... & vice versa, when u're not tat gd either.... dun fcuking judge ppl...
haiz... the stress lvls, the financial crisis, the frenz probs, the relationship probs... the studies-based probs all came the rite time... but still abit la... i'm old.... i'm now harder to absorb new tings.... wateva is creating these shld let mi get use 2 these 'humps' earlier in my life... not now.... i reali reali miz the sec sch... haiz... being a spenthrift & abt 2 mingle ard wif my Nan Ren Bang & being the coolest in sec sch is absoultely the best u can ever wish 4 in ur entire life....
so ani1 wanna condemn mi 4 writing such a 'useless' post.... search ur heart... dun u miz the sec sch???? dun u guyz wanna do tings tat teacher planned 4 u, rather than u nida unveil & solved it urselves??? dun tellll mi no... cuz i wun b'live, but if u wanna lie 2 urself... i'm juz a passer-by on tat perspectives....
P/S : sorry 4 my vulgarities.... i juz so hate tiz world... summore i'm alone... even frenz wanna help i dun, cuz i dun even noe how 2 xplain tiz hurt inside of mi...... how m i gonna ask 4 help???????
"I've changed... for the worse"
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