RAGE!!!!!
i flew into rage... last nite & 2dae... wat happened to mi man!!!!!!!
i totally lost it... i condemed JX.... i threw a book at sebes... damn... wtf m i tinking.... haiz~~~~~ i kinda sorry, but i juz cant control it... my stress lvl reached its peak, after i've said it few wks ago.... the proj is breathing down my neck.... i dun abt the others... but i wanna go into U... i wanna go SMU... i wanna show rachel, or ani1 else tat i can '出人头地'... but wif my grades... i reali cant... & i dun tink i'm able to loan any $ frm those freaking banks since my family is now literally in debts... i'm depending on tiz IHP... but... frm wat i've seen to tiz final wk...... its more than hard.... it's visually IMPOSSIBLE!!! & i'm doing tings abt it, i duno the others... tiz 'oppotunity' means awhole lot 2 mi... i wanna b a person tats '有头有脸'....
i wanna marry rachel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna book half the 'durain' for my wedding, i wanna b an influencial person....
haiz~~~~~ tinking abt the future too far... aniway... if those 2 person i mentioned above, happens to read tiz, i juz wanna sae sorri... i've got my little bit of pride, so i wun try 2 sae it in ur face... but i hope u'll accept it, if not, there's nth i could do too.... but i reali hope we dun end our frenzhip tiz way...
kkkkkk.... back to wat blogs r supposed to b, a way of telling the world wat u had done 2dae...
went 2 sch chiong the coding... gonna reach my part soon, tesing & duno wat la... hope ming yang could fin the coding by tml... then i'll look thru the interface thruout the wkend.... hope to cum out wif a test plan.... pushing shan & xie abit 4 the report, cuz i noe they wun do in clz... =) but i noe they do get serious when at hm... so told them wat is nida of them, then i'll leave it 2 them 2 do at hm... stayed back abit more 2dae, cuz still deciding whether 2 go Paya Lebar fetch rachel back after her piano teaching clz... waitin 4 her for 2hrs seems to b abit long, so i decided to meet her after i went hm, at cwp...
then we had LJS 4 dinner, i ate abit(no appet, still tinking on how 2 make out a successful person).... then send her hm.... i din reali ans her qns the way i wanted, cuz my mind is in a whirl... so tiz is wat i wanna sae 2 her
Rachel: "Send mi hm liao, then straight go hm meh???no sianz ah"
Crizz: "it happens to b u ma, silly" "U means alot to mi silly, alot more than sianz trips to & fro"
=)
let mi sign off by saying sorry to Sebes & Jia Xin again....
"I've changed... for the worse"
©rizz™
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